It's night now, 10.54 PM, not asleep because i got a lot of things in my mind.
I got into a fight with Adzim again and it has been the same topic for all those months we had together. He never let it go, I did everything i could to prove him wrong but he doesn't seem to get it. Right now, I'm just controlling my sad emotion so i wouldn't cry. I don't want to cry anymore, I threw all my tears out before and I don't want to do it again. If i had a machine that could tell him, what he thinks ain't true, i would zap those things out of him already.
Today I got angry to Balqish, Zamil, My sister and Adzim. Who else would like to be scold at? I mean, what did i even do to deserve this? My health isn't that good anymore, I'm getting weaker day by day but i still act hyper as always but that doesn't mean people could just come to me and break me to pieces. My heart isn't in a good shape, I'm having asthma, heart attack and etc. Even when i'm asleep, i could still feel those pain. I shed tears when i'm dreaming, cry all of a sudden, get mad in the end, it's like I'm having different emotion at the same time.
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