Fasting Month

I'm in the 6th day of fasting month ~ should not be proud of that since i missed 4 days of fast so yeah, sorry for not blogging for awhile now. Not really sure who checks out my blog since it's abandoned for a long time. Raya ni, not much happy things to expect since i get to see my love one for A DAY and yes, it is better than nothing but it's still sad to not see someone for a long time and only ONCE i get to face you. Back to the point here, my mom is planning to make an open house and i'm just figuring things out to whom i'm going to invite. Grrr, so very sure i'll be a maid for that day.

I haven't been twittering much now, bored maybe? It's nothing you can do much there because you only have to update your status, nothing interesting about that but basically, i do quotes there and sorry coz it's more to being emotionally dumb haha.

Updates will be known in the future. Bye ~

What could possibly go wrong?

I wasn't quite sure of what i did. Maybe it's because my parents doesn't trust me anymore. From what i know, i've been breaking the rules and breaking every word told for me to do from my parents. I did say sorry.


Well, i'm beat up and brought down. My own friend used me for my friends. What the heck? She lie a lot but how can people still hold on to her? Because she's cool is that it? I'm sorry but i'mma unfriend you from my life. The end, Ainin. THE END. No more games coz i'm not dumb to be in your stupid words. Stop monopolizing me, bye

Dum Dum

It's morning already? PS. Midnight -

Bored to death. I'm searching for a server i could play on MINECRAFT . Anyone got one?

Facebook is dead

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Twitter for LIFE :)

It's gonna be a Good Life ~

I wasn't expecting anything but...

Hello there, 

wish i could talk more here but i'm so lazy somehow. Anyways, i missed a lot of events this year since PMR is near and i know i wont get to go anywhere. Things had been happening lately, i dont know what should i do. I'm lost. I can't cry anymore, i have to be strong. Someone who i loved dearly left me a few months ago but i don't expect anything though. Just wish i could talk to that person again. Would i get the chance? I don't even know. My dad told me that i should always answer with a good answer and not answer I dont know but dad, i seriously DON'T KNOW. 

How should i say this again, YES, i got my result and eventually i'm at the last position in the class. I told you, i'm not smart as you think. Maybe because i had a lot of things that had been messing up my mind? I wish i know. I fought, cried, broke down, alone and always near dark walls. My life has been troubled a lot. I don't know what to say to my parents about my results, i don't want to upset them, but huh.... If only god could only show me the way to tell them. I don't want to hide anymore. I'm so scared. 

I really wish he could read this, i miss you and guess i'm the only one who can't bring myself to hate you and actually, i pity you more than anything. You're being hated, that's not good. I told you before, friends aren't everything, they will one day leave you and eventually you started meeting new people. Like me, what friends are to be by my side when the only person with me was my family yet, i couldn't possibly tell them everything. We used to tell each other everything, when you cried, when i cried, when we fought, it was always about us. I wished you would know this but you don't want me in your life anymore, no force used. 

I wanna see, talk and tell you to come back to my side, be my pillow again, be the comfort when i sleep coz, you used to be my everything. I don't plan to leave you even when i have someone new in my life, let me take care of you while you search for a new life. I promised remember?

You'll be missed

Today was the " BBQ Night " and i missed it, great.....

  Well, i'm not suppose to go there, actually was going there to send some stuff to Adzim. He didn't freaking reply my letters so, i gave him a book that will be filled with memories of ours. We'll be exchanging book when we see each other. Really glad that he is always by my side even though we were knocked down by our arguments but still, i'm glad.

  Tomorrow is where we separate because he'll be going back to Labuan somewhere in the afternoon i guess. Even so, this distance is never a good one, I want to see him, hug him, URGH...he is so important to me. He's like a little brother who make me smile, laugh and cry. I wish we wouldn't have to be apart but then he said he'll come back permanently SOON. He's working it out. I'm still wishing for that to happen. I wonder if he is even reading this? Well if you are, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ! Best Friend or not, still happy we met :) Thank you Arieff Danial for introducing me to him. Even if you call me a B*tch or pathetic and hate me so much, i dont care, I'm still thanking you and no worries, I hate you too

  Till then Readers :)

Off The Chain

 

I'm back from yesterday :)

  Anyways, my dad just bought a 3D Tv and it was to be said, he bought himself that for Father's Day so he wont get the ARGUE with my mom for buying too many Television. So yeah, i had to be a guy for my dad since my brother is in Campus, i had to Carry the tv up to my dad's room, fix and match the TV after that. Damn tiring weyh.

  At night, i had my dinner at McDonalds, Taipan, via bad memories of my birthday party. Still i met someone i know that is Azmil Aziz. I don't talk nor wave nor made eye contacts with him since i am not close or rather not know anything about him. As i got back home, i made up with Adzim :) Good news are always so wonderful, heee <3 But that's not the main reason though i talk to him, i explained what i made my choice not to be more than friends. 

  

  As what people say, being lovers are far too dangerous as they would leave your side anytime they want unless it's marriage than it could be safer than an ordinary Love Birds. I find it really satisfying since i get to know him bit by bit, and not rush things. 

That is all for today, Till then

 

My New Hair

 

  Apparently, my hair looks like this now and no, i'm not trying to be her eventhough she's my idol :) I like changing hair once in a while and so, i'm living my life with this for awhile. Hopefully it's not that awkward though. Bahahaha, it is also been awhile since i last blogged and now, i'm here with stories again. Well, i wont be typing much though. Just telling you some of my stories.

  I hope you guys remember the guy in my previous blog, if you don't know or not know this person than just hear me. He likes my best friend aka his ex again and lol, he called me pathetic in wise which i dont quite understand. He's been acting like a snob/jerk to me since the beginning of our story but wait, isn't that the part where we go not talking to each other. YES, we haven't been talking for 1,2,3...4 months already and i dont freaking care actually. Back to the point, he called her BULLSHIT and look, he is all puppy cat with her again. Keep telling me to move on eh when actually you yourself aint. She already got a boyfriend, well not to say boyfriend, well guy bestfriend means they are very much close and having chemistry with each other. That's what she told me. Whatever it is, I shouldn't be blogging about you anyways. Yes, i admit, I've been stuck in yesterday, wondering why is he been treating me like this when i haven't done nothing wrong. I wasn't being rude nor angry at him. He just got angry and hated me so much. I don't understand. I know he have his reasons but WHAT?

  Whatever it is, i am not happy with it. It's like he is a totally different person and tell me, who was acting like a bitch in the first place. I was actually being fair and nice. I just fought with his childhood friend and i'm so lonely now not talking to him. I mean a day without him is like a year without rain. (Thank you Selena, you stalk my life with your songs) I don't feel happy nor sad, just lonely. Some life i'm having. I cause too much problems in life so i don't want to burden anyone right now. I feel like an uber annoyance, just wanting someone to understand and enjoy but no, i feel like its the other way around.

  I've been rebellious, breaking the rules and heart of my parents, I can't believe i've been a naughty girl to my mom and dad. I'm sorry, i promise i won't do it again. Somehow parents don't understand LOVE in a teenagers life. It exist doesn't it. My mom has one before right? Why does she needs to act like she understand what would become in the future. Because of my boyfriend, i've been getting good results, my life was perfect, PUZZLE completed. If only she understand what i feel, i would had never had this stupid idiotic fight. He was being nice, he gave me so much hope. Gah! because of this stupid thing, we broke off. Why can't they understand.

  Okay, so i'm off, i hope you guys are satisfied with my stories.