Hello there,
wish i could talk more here but i'm so lazy somehow. Anyways, i missed a lot of events this year since PMR is near and i know i wont get to go anywhere. Things had been happening lately, i dont know what should i do. I'm lost. I can't cry anymore, i have to be strong. Someone who i loved dearly left me a few months ago but i don't expect anything though. Just wish i could talk to that person again. Would i get the chance? I don't even know. My dad told me that i should always answer with a good answer and not answer I dont know but dad, i seriously DON'T KNOW.
How should i say this again, YES, i got my result and eventually i'm at the last position in the class. I told you, i'm not smart as you think. Maybe because i had a lot of things that had been messing up my mind? I wish i know. I fought, cried, broke down, alone and always near dark walls. My life has been troubled a lot. I don't know what to say to my parents about my results, i don't want to upset them, but huh.... If only god could only show me the way to tell them. I don't want to hide anymore. I'm so scared.
I really wish he could read this, i miss you and guess i'm the only one who can't bring myself to hate you and actually, i pity you more than anything. You're being hated, that's not good. I told you before, friends aren't everything, they will one day leave you and eventually you started meeting new people. Like me, what friends are to be by my side when the only person with me was my family yet, i couldn't possibly tell them everything. We used to tell each other everything, when you cried, when i cried, when we fought, it was always about us. I wished you would know this but you don't want me in your life anymore, no force used.
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